Poetry of Pain...........and Redemption
Empty
Alone I sit and listen
To the sounds of emptiness
Singing to me, the one with empty arms
And broken dreams
Everything I ever wanted, seems
Unreachable or taken by another
Is fate a cruel prankster, with an unfunny joke?
I wonder at times, if Destiny
Has deemed me to wander all alone
Never knowing a lovers caress, or the passion in his eyes
At times the longing is maddening
The tears fall and melt into my pillow
The loneliness enveloping me once again
I curse my longing soul
I watch others and still can smile at their joy
But at times, the hurt is raw
A reminder of what I don’t have
And maybe never will
No lover’s laughter or knowing smiles
No cuddles in the break of day light
My words heard whispered in the darkness
Only by my goddess and me
So many broken dreams, promises
All came to me times past but do nothing in the now
For now I am alone in my bed and life
With unanswered songs
Never touching the realness
Of a lovers face and hair
Only staring at the space of nothing and feeling more alone then I ever believed I could
Never did I believe I would end up this way
To end each day hungering for the touch
Of the one I love but she isn’t here, the dark prince of my longings
Screaming in my mind, shattering my heart
Like broken glass, I am tired of all alone
I face alone the day in my bed, nocturnal angel all alone
In the void of emptiness that is my world
Unwrapped presents
The heart is full flames
That burn so bright
Yet the arms are so very empty
As passion burns within
Given to no one
These secret gifts I hold
Within my soul
With no one to give then to
Presents yet unwrapped
Come the break of day
I go to my bed
My darkened room that
Protects me from the glare
Of the sun
I crawl in my bed
Between my sheets
And lay alone and think
Though there is no protection
From the emptiness I feel
My life spins before me
Circles of work, sleep and all alone
I sing songs to no one
I dream of something more,
As I head out to the night time
I look back at the door
My home, my heart
All there and waiting
For the one some day
Who will fill this vampyress
Heart with love
And end these lonely days
Dreams of the Heart
Through plastic and wire
A song did play
In the soul of the vampyress
Long miles away though so close
It sang of desire and longing
It played in her heart
Caresses of the soul
Passions whispers
Wondering if solace
Hides in the distance,
Know the others
May not understand
That her body shivers
For the touch of his hand
She will dream this night
And seek his touch
In the realm of astral
To find the one with
Her passions mate
Brought by plastic and wire
And a strange twist of fate
There all will happen
That is dreamed of
She will feed him her fiery love
He will give her the touch that he has.
Wrapped up inside them
Free now at last
To kiss him so sweetly
And hold him so close
To sleep in his arm
So tender so close,
Part they do now
And say their goodbyes
And meet once again
At the end of sunrise
Stabs
With stabs in my back
I grow weary
Crimson tears of betrayal.
Lies are deadly
People are crushed
Innocents hurt
For the selfish and greed
Head games ripping flesh
Hearts that knew love
Now empty
Never to mend
Power trips
Ego boosts for the insecure
Fake words
False love, hidden motives
Glutton for praise
From anywhere
Cry wolf too many times
No one listens
I hear no more
I have closed the tunnel
No light
No sound
Only pain
I am now numb to it all
Ode to sleeping alone
Moonlight plays across my window
As I roll over to hug nobody
Rain falls, softly
As no one holds me tight
Fireflies dance
As I wish for my partner
The sheets feel so very cold
As I hug emptiness
And nobody holds me close .
Fighting over covers
With no one at all
My lips ache
As nobody kisses them
This bed is crowded
And empty all the same
No one and nobody
My lovers in vain
The price of wishes
Candles burn, flicker and flash
Whispered voices fill my head
Vows taken to the blackness caress
Wishes granted, deals made
She came to me upon a dream
Long ago took my hand
Called me childe
Said we would talk
And she said the score
Told I could be a dream walker
Just like she
From that day there was no more,
Nothing left of innocence lost
Gladly taken, forever lost
From time to time
She returns his call
Just to remind me
I gave up it all
Music screaming in my head
Songs of torture fear and dread
All my gifts she gave to me
Have left me with
Cold brutality..
Barren heart, soul so lost
Little girl, lupine angel
Woman childe forever lost
I wander alone now
Ever the huntress
Incapable of stopping
The beast I have become
Tempting death
Awaiting his caress
To end the madness
Only to be denied his arrival.
I make love to my dagger
As it seeks out my insanity
Coupling with vengeance
Ice flowing through my veins
I chuckle at the pain
For I feel only the hunger
Dreaming of crimson rainstorms
The quest never done
Gone are Sunday smiles
And the heart that hoped and dreamed
Locked in eternity
Little girl gone, ice princess here to stay
Made a deal with the darkness
All my wishes made
Payment is forever
The price I had to pay
I have all I ever wanted
I bought it with my soul
As a little girl
She was tattered and torn
As a child she was cold
And alone.....
As a teen she was violated
Trust was destroyed..
No one came to save
Neither her heart nor her soul
She closed off her self
Never to let anyone inside
Away safe from love
She ran to hide.
Fear kept her safe
Always loved,
Unable to truly love
The wall loomed
And kept her safe,
As a woman ,
She grew to be cold
Such an ice princess
All so alone....
His name, one day
Come to her from a friend
The reign of the ice princess
Came to an end.
She listened to his heart
And looked at his pictures
And she was forever changed
Gone were the memories
Of a mother’s boyfriend
Who raped and took her youth
Gone were the filthy hands groping her?
As a young girl, come on little song bird
As managers and agents, tried to make her
While her mother whose heart went cold, she just
Said sing little songbird sing and closed her eyes .
Refusing to see, that all this was killing
The song birds will to love.
Her mother said take what you can get
It was on this she was raised
She ran to husbands arms
While still a child
Hot grease tossed on her back
Skull fractures and a coma
Were the answers she got
So again she was alone
And learned to be lonely
Until the day she saw this picture
Of the one she had always saw
In dreams she had laughed away.
He could never be, but then she did see
His face, heard his words and knew
Here finally was he , the one she knew
Only from her dreams, he had another
Fear struck in.......she many love her
So very many men, she couldn’t let in..
But this man...well he had a key
Little song bird.....you know it’s not
For her to ever win
The worst enemy she has ever had
Was, her loss to accept love
To show it even to really know it
So she told her love, a sad goodbye
And over him she will forever cry
Now her soul has learned,
Sad, sad fact
When you lose the perfect love
You shall never get it back
She ran to one who loved her so
Knowing that her true love would surely go
But then again she always did know
That for her love and happiness
Was never to be so...
Razor song
He appears, meets your eyes
Shouldn’t come as a surprise
Sitting there, room spins round
Whiskey running through your head
All you felt now is dead
Crimson sliver run anew
Come on baby sing the razor song
Cleansing rivers stop the pain
Endless nights alone
Finally took its toll
Fate pointed it finger
Said I want you
The rhythm of the music
It sings to your heart
Bleed baby, bleed just for me
Sweet death's seduction
Come dance with your demons
They miss you so
Come baby sing the razor song
Kisses and whispers
Tried to run from us
But we think you should know
We are here waiting
Now it’s time to go
Child of darkness, child of song
Home is where hell is
Come on baby sing the razor song
Walk with me now come along
You had your time
You sang your song,
The show is over
Now come along
Slice it deeply
Don’t take too long
Bleed out all the pain
Such pretty red rain
Don’t say it will hurt, little songbird
In this life you've known worse
Rape and misjudgement
Love for you is just a curse
Come now childe your pain is through
My dark wings here spread
To enfold you
Come on baby sing the razor song
You know the words, they come to you
Off to nothing together we sail
Sleep among the starlight
Wash down the pain
Drink that fire water
Perfect for you demon daughter
Funny thought you had
Silly, silly you, that happiness
Would find and come save the day
Come on dark angel
Tell me true, did you think that could happen
To one such as you?
Bleed and cry, take my hand
Come find peace and sleep so true
Let my arms come hold you
Come on baby sing the razor song
Long Is the Night
Long is the night
Alone I walk
These streets of forever
Desires in the eyes I see
But not the desire I wish
From you for me
Reasons tell warns
To set my heart free
As the rush of the
Hungers of ages
Flows through me
Foggy evenings
I wonder as I walk do you
Think of me?
Bad choices, pride on the fall
Searching for compassion
Where none is found
Only with you do I find
Understanding
The karmic bond eternal
Seeking a solution
To my cravings
Only you truly have the answer
For you alone hold the key
To feed from scarlet
Delight .at your side
To have your
Arms to enfold me
And hold me oh so tight
Whispers I long for
Saying all will be alright
But things can’t be that way
I understand all too well
Starry skies tell me true
That I what my heart truly seeks
I find in you
The time is never right it seems
So many things complicate
And my imprisoned captive
Heart can only wait
We pass each other on by
Each knowing what the heart
Says is true
I wonder if you ever see
The tears that I cry
When I long for you
We drift through our lives
Both working hard to survive
A purpose clear and true
Wishes made from me and you
Time can only tell
What this life shall bring
To you and I……
For I am
The queen of the darkest passions
You reign as king
The Dark Angel's Loss
Sadness enfold my heart
I know now we must part
I of darkness
You of light
Love can’t end the eternal fight
What she is she cannot change
I go on as I, have always been
And you travel your own road
It was a beautiful trip we took
In the shadows where we met
And the love I had for you I will never forget
So when you walk through darkness
And as you feel the caress of starlight
Know that it was the one who loves you so
As she reaches through the shadows
Into the only spot she can touch
She watches you in the light
And loves you still even though
She couldn’t be what you wanted
And she had to let you go
Her heart now is empty
Her soul awaits the end
Of its time in this life
Hopefully the in his mercy
The hand of death will end this walk alone
She is child of darkness, he was child of light
Love was caught forever in between this fight
The shadows were the only place
That they could meet and love
She couldn’t go into the light
And couldn’t rise above
So sadly now she walks alone
Her eyes they fill with tears
Her heart fills up with sorrow
Weighed down with loss
The Is No light here
There is no light here
No smile
No embrace
There is no one
Who understands?
No one to save me
From gripping hands
Should have saw it
Should have known the score
I was blinded and broad sided
Silly little hopes and dreams
Never meant to be
'Empty nights
And lonely days
In the cards for me
Cold and dizzy head is spinning
Betrayal how it stings
Lost in silent blood red rages
Holding back the beast
Out of it now
Gone forever
Never back again
The blackness found me
And held my hand
And took me back again .
Hatred holds me now
Should have known it all before
Silly hope of ever after
Sneaked right out my door
Hide away
Welcome to the hideaway
The games of lovers, the eternal
Self-denial, the blindfolds we wear
Oh so tightly, blocking out all light.
In the dream scape of a love
We hid from the horrors of truths
Preferring to shelter ourselves
In dreams, from the slaps of truth
Huddled close I reach to touch you.
I need to be reassured, to be held close
I beg you in dreams and awake.
Love me kill me all the same.
Tell me sweet lies, hide the pain of real.
Make my daydreams come to me
In rushes of promises,
That will never be kept
Deceive me with forever’s
Oh my partner in this merry go round world
May we stay here forever?
I don’t want to face being alone
In my bed of black lace.
Screaming, crying bleeding.
It’s just too real
Don’t let truths hurt us
In our world of sweet dreams
Let us hide in the madness
I cannot deal with the truth
The rape of all I wanted
Believed to be so true
I beg you to hide me now
In this make believe world .
All my dreams are there now
I wove them into this
I can face tomorrow
Or forever not with you
I come out each day and face reality
And its bites and tears at my flesh.
Scared I run to your lies and promises
Safe there I hide.
The scars of promises, pain and disappointment
Mark my soul
My heart leaks from pain, torn and shredded
I wanted this to be our forever
As I slip into insanity.
Kiss me; kill me all the same to me
As I run screaming
To the world of it doesn’t matter anymore
Find me there among the flowers
I am the rose who has long faded away
Silent Suffering
In the sombre veins
Of nothing
Happiness a long ago memory
The stillness of vacant dreams
The screams of the could bes haunt my nightmares
Empty, cold, and barren, these days I live
Missing what I am
Trying to be what I am not
Longing for the crimson pleasures
Knowing no one here can understand..
As I am deeply
Missing my own kind
Alone and isolated in a sea of normal
In this mortal wasteland
Wirh its boring expectations
And silly needs,
Not met by kindred seductions
I miss the danger of what I am
The slaves who did my bidding
Those who know that we are not like them
We are the hidden kings and queens
Whose time shall soon come?
Now all that seems far away.
I’m the trapped vampyress locked in suburbia
Hear me scream silently..
There are no explanations available
No way to make the masses see
I Long to run to the fold of kindred arms
Those of who understand the things
That there are no answers to
I am cemented in
Drowning in the flow
Help me... I yell to no one
As the sun sets soon
Racing in my veins
Is the pulse of what I am...?
I seek solitude
That can never be found
Here trapped
In a sea of normal mundane noise
The promise of darkness
Sing a song of pain and loss
Messed with me at but what cost
Nightmares claim your every sleep
I laugh in the shadows as you wept
Lil one who thought you knew
The way to cheat and lie
Maybe somehow catch his eye
There is something I think you should know
If he's that phatic, know I let him go
The one who shares my bed
Would fill your heart so dull of dread
I love the darkness, and it doesn’t love you
For any that would sink to have you
I would take and his mind and screw
Let me tell you something little girl
This vampyress, she knows the world
My vengeance shall break through
Cast protection as my flames break through
Just because I closed my eyes don’t think I couldn’t see
My demons whisper softly to me
Tonight I bath in sweet red blood
Laughter rings out
Your lover I caress
Now everything you wanted I seek
Not that I want it
But you're such a geek
You gave it a good go
Too bad that was your best
Silly one you failed the demons test
When you see the moonlight dance
Know it hungers for me,
Just as your lovers smile in his sleep
It’s not you, that makes his blood weak
I am nightmares, lust and rage
Watching you play in your cage
Sneaky snake puppy dog
Wanna see you whimper and cry
Better watch out because now
You may just die
Time for me to put the dog to sleep
Maybe you will do it yourself
Do us all a big favor and
And be unique
Rid the world of useless garbage
Or maybe it will be like this
Don’t worry I’ll be quiet
No one will hear a peep
It would be so fun to off
You in your sleep
But then again I want your last sight
To be, the baring of my nails and teeth
Ripping your dream world, hopes
And your throat to bits
For what I could do is far more
Then you....
Your skin a beautiful shade of blue
Your heart fed to my demons
Ever by
No one around will hear your cry
I await you in the darkness
That place that chills you so
Those childhood nightmares
Can never compare
To the serving I give of pain and despair
Listen in the silence, hear my feet draw near
My gentle giggle the last thing you hear
The winds chill finds you
The tears freeze in place
On her snow white skin and
Her china doll face
Pain is her partner
Ice is her heart
One last hurt too many
Cold and barren are
Her eyes as she dances
Grins like ice cubes
Spinning and twirling away
The ice princess calls you
Come slumber in the chill
Of a touch from the coldness
All hope gone astray
Kiss her icy lips, just like
Her heart....
Promises on snowy breath
Caresses of sliver starlight dreams
You tried to melt her
Wasn’t easy as it seems
She was frozen long ago
Each hurt made her chill grow
Pain now solid no love does she seek
Now the ice princes dances alone now
And it’s time for you to go
Look once more at her form
In the cold moonlight
Say good bye and walk away
Cry to the Night birds
In the depths of darkness
Waits the light
In the stillness of nothing
Night birds call out
Watch them take flight
There will be no answer
As the fog rolls in
Flying to wherever
My eyes watch them flee
Wishing the fog was a lover
To come hold me
To wrap all around me
And sleep at my side
I have grown way to lonely
Wounded my pride
I cry out to the heavens
Pain please let me be
Or death come and take me
And make your bride
I know no answers
No cure for this pain
Please stop my crying
Tears falling like Rain
And set this pain free
For I can feel nothing
But empty despair
Tired of endings
Life is unfair
Alone I sit and listen
To the sounds of emptiness
Singing to me, the one with empty arms
And broken dreams
Everything I ever wanted, seems
Unreachable or taken by another
Is fate a cruel prankster, with an unfunny joke?
I wonder at times, if Destiny
Has deemed me to wander all alone
Never knowing a lovers caress, or the passion in his eyes
At times the longing is maddening
The tears fall and melt into my pillow
The loneliness enveloping me once again
I curse my longing soul
I watch others and still can smile at their joy
But at times, the hurt is raw
A reminder of what I don’t have
And maybe never will
No lover’s laughter or knowing smiles
No cuddles in the break of day light
My words heard whispered in the darkness
Only by my goddess and me
So many broken dreams, promises
All came to me times past but do nothing in the now
For now I am alone in my bed and life
With unanswered songs
Never touching the realness
Of a lovers face and hair
Only staring at the space of nothing and feeling more alone then I ever believed I could
Never did I believe I would end up this way
To end each day hungering for the touch
Of the one I love but she isn’t here, the dark prince of my longings
Screaming in my mind, shattering my heart
Like broken glass, I am tired of all alone
I face alone the day in my bed, nocturnal angel all alone
In the void of emptiness that is my world
Unwrapped presents
The heart is full flames
That burn so bright
Yet the arms are so very empty
As passion burns within
Given to no one
These secret gifts I hold
Within my soul
With no one to give then to
Presents yet unwrapped
Come the break of day
I go to my bed
My darkened room that
Protects me from the glare
Of the sun
I crawl in my bed
Between my sheets
And lay alone and think
Though there is no protection
From the emptiness I feel
My life spins before me
Circles of work, sleep and all alone
I sing songs to no one
I dream of something more,
As I head out to the night time
I look back at the door
My home, my heart
All there and waiting
For the one some day
Who will fill this vampyress
Heart with love
And end these lonely days
Dreams of the Heart
Through plastic and wire
A song did play
In the soul of the vampyress
Long miles away though so close
It sang of desire and longing
It played in her heart
Caresses of the soul
Passions whispers
Wondering if solace
Hides in the distance,
Know the others
May not understand
That her body shivers
For the touch of his hand
She will dream this night
And seek his touch
In the realm of astral
To find the one with
Her passions mate
Brought by plastic and wire
And a strange twist of fate
There all will happen
That is dreamed of
She will feed him her fiery love
He will give her the touch that he has.
Wrapped up inside them
Free now at last
To kiss him so sweetly
And hold him so close
To sleep in his arm
So tender so close,
Part they do now
And say their goodbyes
And meet once again
At the end of sunrise
Stabs
With stabs in my back
I grow weary
Crimson tears of betrayal.
Lies are deadly
People are crushed
Innocents hurt
For the selfish and greed
Head games ripping flesh
Hearts that knew love
Now empty
Never to mend
Power trips
Ego boosts for the insecure
Fake words
False love, hidden motives
Glutton for praise
From anywhere
Cry wolf too many times
No one listens
I hear no more
I have closed the tunnel
No light
No sound
Only pain
I am now numb to it all
Ode to sleeping alone
Moonlight plays across my window
As I roll over to hug nobody
Rain falls, softly
As no one holds me tight
Fireflies dance
As I wish for my partner
The sheets feel so very cold
As I hug emptiness
And nobody holds me close .
Fighting over covers
With no one at all
My lips ache
As nobody kisses them
This bed is crowded
And empty all the same
No one and nobody
My lovers in vain
The price of wishes
Candles burn, flicker and flash
Whispered voices fill my head
Vows taken to the blackness caress
Wishes granted, deals made
She came to me upon a dream
Long ago took my hand
Called me childe
Said we would talk
And she said the score
Told I could be a dream walker
Just like she
From that day there was no more,
Nothing left of innocence lost
Gladly taken, forever lost
From time to time
She returns his call
Just to remind me
I gave up it all
Music screaming in my head
Songs of torture fear and dread
All my gifts she gave to me
Have left me with
Cold brutality..
Barren heart, soul so lost
Little girl, lupine angel
Woman childe forever lost
I wander alone now
Ever the huntress
Incapable of stopping
The beast I have become
Tempting death
Awaiting his caress
To end the madness
Only to be denied his arrival.
I make love to my dagger
As it seeks out my insanity
Coupling with vengeance
Ice flowing through my veins
I chuckle at the pain
For I feel only the hunger
Dreaming of crimson rainstorms
The quest never done
Gone are Sunday smiles
And the heart that hoped and dreamed
Locked in eternity
Little girl gone, ice princess here to stay
Made a deal with the darkness
All my wishes made
Payment is forever
The price I had to pay
I have all I ever wanted
I bought it with my soul
As a little girl
She was tattered and torn
As a child she was cold
And alone.....
As a teen she was violated
Trust was destroyed..
No one came to save
Neither her heart nor her soul
She closed off her self
Never to let anyone inside
Away safe from love
She ran to hide.
Fear kept her safe
Always loved,
Unable to truly love
The wall loomed
And kept her safe,
As a woman ,
She grew to be cold
Such an ice princess
All so alone....
His name, one day
Come to her from a friend
The reign of the ice princess
Came to an end.
She listened to his heart
And looked at his pictures
And she was forever changed
Gone were the memories
Of a mother’s boyfriend
Who raped and took her youth
Gone were the filthy hands groping her?
As a young girl, come on little song bird
As managers and agents, tried to make her
While her mother whose heart went cold, she just
Said sing little songbird sing and closed her eyes .
Refusing to see, that all this was killing
The song birds will to love.
Her mother said take what you can get
It was on this she was raised
She ran to husbands arms
While still a child
Hot grease tossed on her back
Skull fractures and a coma
Were the answers she got
So again she was alone
And learned to be lonely
Until the day she saw this picture
Of the one she had always saw
In dreams she had laughed away.
He could never be, but then she did see
His face, heard his words and knew
Here finally was he , the one she knew
Only from her dreams, he had another
Fear struck in.......she many love her
So very many men, she couldn’t let in..
But this man...well he had a key
Little song bird.....you know it’s not
For her to ever win
The worst enemy she has ever had
Was, her loss to accept love
To show it even to really know it
So she told her love, a sad goodbye
And over him she will forever cry
Now her soul has learned,
Sad, sad fact
When you lose the perfect love
You shall never get it back
She ran to one who loved her so
Knowing that her true love would surely go
But then again she always did know
That for her love and happiness
Was never to be so...
Razor song
He appears, meets your eyes
Shouldn’t come as a surprise
Sitting there, room spins round
Whiskey running through your head
All you felt now is dead
Crimson sliver run anew
Come on baby sing the razor song
Cleansing rivers stop the pain
Endless nights alone
Finally took its toll
Fate pointed it finger
Said I want you
The rhythm of the music
It sings to your heart
Bleed baby, bleed just for me
Sweet death's seduction
Come dance with your demons
They miss you so
Come baby sing the razor song
Kisses and whispers
Tried to run from us
But we think you should know
We are here waiting
Now it’s time to go
Child of darkness, child of song
Home is where hell is
Come on baby sing the razor song
Walk with me now come along
You had your time
You sang your song,
The show is over
Now come along
Slice it deeply
Don’t take too long
Bleed out all the pain
Such pretty red rain
Don’t say it will hurt, little songbird
In this life you've known worse
Rape and misjudgement
Love for you is just a curse
Come now childe your pain is through
My dark wings here spread
To enfold you
Come on baby sing the razor song
You know the words, they come to you
Off to nothing together we sail
Sleep among the starlight
Wash down the pain
Drink that fire water
Perfect for you demon daughter
Funny thought you had
Silly, silly you, that happiness
Would find and come save the day
Come on dark angel
Tell me true, did you think that could happen
To one such as you?
Bleed and cry, take my hand
Come find peace and sleep so true
Let my arms come hold you
Come on baby sing the razor song
Long Is the Night
Long is the night
Alone I walk
These streets of forever
Desires in the eyes I see
But not the desire I wish
From you for me
Reasons tell warns
To set my heart free
As the rush of the
Hungers of ages
Flows through me
Foggy evenings
I wonder as I walk do you
Think of me?
Bad choices, pride on the fall
Searching for compassion
Where none is found
Only with you do I find
Understanding
The karmic bond eternal
Seeking a solution
To my cravings
Only you truly have the answer
For you alone hold the key
To feed from scarlet
Delight .at your side
To have your
Arms to enfold me
And hold me oh so tight
Whispers I long for
Saying all will be alright
But things can’t be that way
I understand all too well
Starry skies tell me true
That I what my heart truly seeks
I find in you
The time is never right it seems
So many things complicate
And my imprisoned captive
Heart can only wait
We pass each other on by
Each knowing what the heart
Says is true
I wonder if you ever see
The tears that I cry
When I long for you
We drift through our lives
Both working hard to survive
A purpose clear and true
Wishes made from me and you
Time can only tell
What this life shall bring
To you and I……
For I am
The queen of the darkest passions
You reign as king
The Dark Angel's Loss
Sadness enfold my heart
I know now we must part
I of darkness
You of light
Love can’t end the eternal fight
What she is she cannot change
I go on as I, have always been
And you travel your own road
It was a beautiful trip we took
In the shadows where we met
And the love I had for you I will never forget
So when you walk through darkness
And as you feel the caress of starlight
Know that it was the one who loves you so
As she reaches through the shadows
Into the only spot she can touch
She watches you in the light
And loves you still even though
She couldn’t be what you wanted
And she had to let you go
Her heart now is empty
Her soul awaits the end
Of its time in this life
Hopefully the in his mercy
The hand of death will end this walk alone
She is child of darkness, he was child of light
Love was caught forever in between this fight
The shadows were the only place
That they could meet and love
She couldn’t go into the light
And couldn’t rise above
So sadly now she walks alone
Her eyes they fill with tears
Her heart fills up with sorrow
Weighed down with loss
The Is No light here
There is no light here
No smile
No embrace
There is no one
Who understands?
No one to save me
From gripping hands
Should have saw it
Should have known the score
I was blinded and broad sided
Silly little hopes and dreams
Never meant to be
'Empty nights
And lonely days
In the cards for me
Cold and dizzy head is spinning
Betrayal how it stings
Lost in silent blood red rages
Holding back the beast
Out of it now
Gone forever
Never back again
The blackness found me
And held my hand
And took me back again .
Hatred holds me now
Should have known it all before
Silly hope of ever after
Sneaked right out my door
Welcome to the hideaway
The games of lovers, the eternal
Self-denial, the blindfolds we wear
Oh so tightly, blocking out all light.
In the dream scape of a love
We hid from the horrors of truths
Preferring to shelter ourselves
In dreams, from the slaps of truth
Huddled close I reach to touch you.
I need to be reassured, to be held close
I beg you in dreams and awake.
Love me kill me all the same.
Tell me sweet lies, hide the pain of real.
Make my daydreams come to me
In rushes of promises,
That will never be kept
Deceive me with forever’s
Oh my partner in this merry go round world
May we stay here forever?
I don’t want to face being alone
In my bed of black lace.
Screaming, crying bleeding.
It’s just too real
Don’t let truths hurt us
In our world of sweet dreams
Let us hide in the madness
I cannot deal with the truth
The rape of all I wanted
Believed to be so true
I beg you to hide me now
In this make believe world .
All my dreams are there now
I wove them into this
I can face tomorrow
Or forever not with you
I come out each day and face reality
And its bites and tears at my flesh.
Scared I run to your lies and promises
Safe there I hide.
The scars of promises, pain and disappointment
Mark my soul
My heart leaks from pain, torn and shredded
I wanted this to be our forever
As I slip into insanity.
Kiss me; kill me all the same to me
As I run screaming
To the world of it doesn’t matter anymore
Find me there among the flowers
I am the rose who has long faded away
Silent Suffering
In the sombre veins
Of nothing
Happiness a long ago memory
The stillness of vacant dreams
The screams of the could bes haunt my nightmares
Empty, cold, and barren, these days I live
Missing what I am
Trying to be what I am not
Longing for the crimson pleasures
Knowing no one here can understand..
As I am deeply
Missing my own kind
Alone and isolated in a sea of normal
In this mortal wasteland
Wirh its boring expectations
And silly needs,
Not met by kindred seductions
I miss the danger of what I am
The slaves who did my bidding
Those who know that we are not like them
We are the hidden kings and queens
Whose time shall soon come?
Now all that seems far away.
I’m the trapped vampyress locked in suburbia
Hear me scream silently..
There are no explanations available
No way to make the masses see
I Long to run to the fold of kindred arms
Those of who understand the things
That there are no answers to
I am cemented in
Drowning in the flow
Help me... I yell to no one
As the sun sets soon
Racing in my veins
Is the pulse of what I am...?
I seek solitude
That can never be found
Here trapped
In a sea of normal mundane noise
The promise of darkness
Sing a song of pain and loss
Messed with me at but what cost
Nightmares claim your every sleep
I laugh in the shadows as you wept
Lil one who thought you knew
The way to cheat and lie
Maybe somehow catch his eye
There is something I think you should know
If he's that phatic, know I let him go
The one who shares my bed
Would fill your heart so dull of dread
I love the darkness, and it doesn’t love you
For any that would sink to have you
I would take and his mind and screw
Let me tell you something little girl
This vampyress, she knows the world
My vengeance shall break through
Cast protection as my flames break through
Just because I closed my eyes don’t think I couldn’t see
My demons whisper softly to me
Tonight I bath in sweet red blood
Laughter rings out
Your lover I caress
Now everything you wanted I seek
Not that I want it
But you're such a geek
You gave it a good go
Too bad that was your best
Silly one you failed the demons test
When you see the moonlight dance
Know it hungers for me,
Just as your lovers smile in his sleep
It’s not you, that makes his blood weak
I am nightmares, lust and rage
Watching you play in your cage
Sneaky snake puppy dog
Wanna see you whimper and cry
Better watch out because now
You may just die
Time for me to put the dog to sleep
Maybe you will do it yourself
Do us all a big favor and
And be unique
Rid the world of useless garbage
Or maybe it will be like this
Don’t worry I’ll be quiet
No one will hear a peep
It would be so fun to off
You in your sleep
But then again I want your last sight
To be, the baring of my nails and teeth
Ripping your dream world, hopes
And your throat to bits
For what I could do is far more
Then you....
Your skin a beautiful shade of blue
Your heart fed to my demons
Ever by
No one around will hear your cry
I await you in the darkness
That place that chills you so
Those childhood nightmares
Can never compare
To the serving I give of pain and despair
Listen in the silence, hear my feet draw near
My gentle giggle the last thing you hear
The winds chill finds you
The tears freeze in place
On her snow white skin and
Her china doll face
Pain is her partner
Ice is her heart
One last hurt too many
Cold and barren are
Her eyes as she dances
Grins like ice cubes
Spinning and twirling away
The ice princess calls you
Come slumber in the chill
Of a touch from the coldness
All hope gone astray
Kiss her icy lips, just like
Her heart....
Promises on snowy breath
Caresses of sliver starlight dreams
You tried to melt her
Wasn’t easy as it seems
She was frozen long ago
Each hurt made her chill grow
Pain now solid no love does she seek
Now the ice princes dances alone now
And it’s time for you to go
Look once more at her form
In the cold moonlight
Say good bye and walk away
Cry to the Night birds
In the depths of darkness
Waits the light
In the stillness of nothing
Night birds call out
Watch them take flight
There will be no answer
As the fog rolls in
Flying to wherever
My eyes watch them flee
Wishing the fog was a lover
To come hold me
To wrap all around me
And sleep at my side
I have grown way to lonely
Wounded my pride
I cry out to the heavens
Pain please let me be
Or death come and take me
And make your bride
I know no answers
No cure for this pain
Please stop my crying
Tears falling like Rain
And set this pain free
For I can feel nothing
But empty despair
Tired of endings
Life is unfair
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